I believe I am in no position to tell people about you, but I am taking this chance on telling everyone how brave you are and for letting me in your life although for a short while.
Recalling the past months made me realize how you kept the pain to yourself. All the while we thought it was just a mere stomachache or something like - LBM, diarrhea, or hyper-acidity. So, the doctor in us advised you to take a rest, Kremil-S, hot compress, and efficacent. That went on for weeks. And you said you'll be fine. You smiled and said, "Laban lang." 💪
More than that, you still went to work. You worked because you don't want to be a burden. You knew you had other responsibilities. You wanted to see your students because they give you strength besides your family. And you don't want to be pitied on. You were insistent and said you'll be fine. You smiled and said, "Laban lang." 💪
Then came one day that you finally asked to go see the doctor. This was after you were in so much pain, had no appetite, and had drastically lost weight. You couldn’t eat because you would throw up. And from then on, the news of you having tumor but the next couple of days – stomach cancer, felt like a pang. Things happened too fast and were just beyond anybody's control and beyond our understanding. We questioned God why it had to be Sheena but God just simply said - it’s Sheena.
Every single day, the disease started to attack you and would cause you severe pain. Doctors even had to give you high dose of pain killer to make you feel relieved. You were suffering. But people who visited you in the hospital were so overwhelmed on how you can still smile and say, "Laban lang." 💪
Two days before Christmas you went back to the Philippines. But before that, you even joked about us gifting you outrageous wigs if you would lose your hair for chemotherapy. You were so excited to spend time with your family over the holidays. You could still reply to our messages and still reassured us that you’ll be fine. Like the usual, you said “Laban lang.” Of course, plus that muscle emoji.💪 But we knew that the disease was spreading all over your body and making you weaker. How can you still smile? You’re one heck of a brave lady!
On the night of January 10th, the saddest news broke. You left us. You stopped the fight. You stopped because you’ve already won all your battles while you were here and there’s nothing you must prove more. You chose to stay far from your family to give them a better life. You fought homesickness, loneliness, and sadness on your own. You always gave your best foot forward at work. You always had that contagious smile and optimism. You are a fighter and you have no idea how much you’ve made us stronger and braver.
So, we will also fight the way you did Sheen. That whatever comes our way, we say to this life, “Laban lang.” 💪 We miss you every day our fighter.
💗💗💗 MEMORY LANE 💗💗💗
April 2019 Harajuku
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| First laag nato Sheen. Sa Line store ni nga photo. Then nagpalit kas imong first bag on impulse. After ani kay niadto tag corn dog store nya nag 2 rounds tag kaon. Ikaw pa nang libre kay lipay kaayo kas imong new bag 😂 |
May 2019 Ueno Science Museum
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| Gi sunod-sunod gyud tas security staff ani kay nagdala tag selfie stick nya bawal man diay. HAHAHA. Amazed kaayo tas atong mga nakit-an nga naabtan tag 4 hours sa sulod. |
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| Nianhi dayon ta sa Ueno Park gikan sa museum. Daghan tawo kay Golden Week mani. Nangaon ta after ani nya lingaw kaayo tas atong food nga wa ta kasabot sa taste basta kay gi try lang. HAHAHA. |
August 2019 Dance Lesson at NOA
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| Naa ra ba koy video ani Sheen. Nagsabot pa ta nga mobalik diri. Ingon baya ka mosayaw pa ta. 😓 |
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| Fave photo ni nako. Didto ni sa Hikarigaoka Park, unahan gamay sa atong share house. Mas nakaila ko nimo ani nga time. Taas-taas pud ni nga chika. Salamat sa trust. Unta naka share ko about Jesus sa imoha. Kung unsa man atong na storyaan, between ra gyud to nato. Promise Sheen! |
September 2019 Shinjuku Filipino restaurant
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Birthday celeb sa atong usa ka kauban. Pwerteng kiat ani nga time nya pag-uli lingaw sab kaayo kay pwerteng kusoga sa uwan. 😂 |
October 2019 Odaiba and Team Lab
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Medyo rainy nga adlaw pero lingaw. Dagan didto dagan diri para daghan malaagan. Niana pa baya ka nga dal-on nimo si Joan ug Tess diri. |
November 2019 Team Building
Naabot na si Joan ani nga time. Si Tess nalang inyong gihuwat
para makumpleto na inyo beshie squad. Nalipay sad ko kay gisul-ob
nimo akong gihatag nga blouse on this day.
December 2019
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Last photo together. Naka-smile ra gihapon ka. The next day ani ihatod na ka sa Cebu para mag continue sa treatment or chemo. Nag joke pa ta nga palitan ka namo ug Ariana Grande wig if you lose your hair sa chemo. Still can't forget that moment nga you were holding me so tight. Kanang feeling nga dili ka magpabiya. Sakit kaayo kay wala koy mabuhat Sheen. We prayed for you before we left. I hope I've shared enough about Jesus. Until this day, I still blame myself. I should've done something. I should've been more sensitive. I feel so useless. I'm sorry Sheen. I'm sorry. I'm sorry sa times nga ni give up ko. I'm sorry kay it's too late for me to realize nga you wanted me to check on you on those days nga you were in so much pain. Reading back our exchanges, you were indirectly asking for help. I feel so stupid for not listening enough. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. 😔 |
I miss you. I still dream of you. Every time mosaka ko sa 2nd floor
ma feel tika didto, your scent is still there. On our Tuesdays off, ma
feel tika sa kitchen, magluto and manawag dayon ka nako kay mag
share ka sa imong food. I miss you Sheen. I miss your laugh.
💔
Two weeks from now, I need to move out sa balay. I think the time is just right.
It's really time to start moving on - to stop feeling guilty about everything
that has happened. But surely, I will never ever forget you Sheen.
You are always the manghod I wish I had. Love you Sheen.
Salamat. Salamat sa tanan.
😌
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