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20/20

My 2019 ended so painful. I was lost with those overwhelming emotions. I got stressed and wasn't in my best self. There were nights that I found it hard to sleep and started feeling anxious and scared. I knew right there and then that I am not in control of myself anymore. That I needed God. I knew I could talk to people about it but I didn't even know where to start. I couldn't even understand myself. 

What I did was, I just read God's word and tried to draw strength and wisdom from it. I was just merely reading and mumbling words. But yes it helped. It was those days that I could really feel God holding me and protecting me. I just kept pressing on. Kept holding on to that faith. As what a friend would always say "Gunit lang gyud. Gunit lang" (Just keep holding on. Just hold on.) And that's what I did. 

And on the last Sunday of the year, I and my friend attended church. The preaching was about vision. You see, a perfect vision is what we call 20/20. And it's also the year 2020! So, the church urged us and reminded us to keep looking beyond and clearly and keep moving forward steadily. How? By forgetting the past, forgetting what hurt you, forgetting your shortcomings and just forget. FORGET. 

Yes! Forget! I'm trying to do that. Slowly.

The pastor also explained that most of the time, the things in the past take away the joy that God has put in our hearts. So let's open our eyes and see God's promises of joy in the midst of worry, love in the midst of anger, and peace in the midst of unending war. 

So I welcome the new year with a clearer vision - to always see beyond!



P.S. I actually got new glasses. They help me see clearly too. 😁


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