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Faith Over Fear

Doing a countdown can only speed up the time.

It's roughly two months before I'm moving to another country. The thought of it is still so surreal. I wanna keep this feeling to myself but every night I'm consumed by it and stay up later than usual. I don't even know what's this feeling like.

I think I'm in hysteria. But no. It isn't excitement, it's apprehension.God!

Thoughts like, "God, do you really want me to go?" "Is it the perfect time?" "Lord, what if I'm just dreaming?" "What am I gonna eat there?" "What's my purpose?" and the list goes on.

I'm clouded with petty concerns but they're overpowering my senses, making me lose track of what matters today, at this time, at this hour, at this minute, at this second.


Then last Sunday, through the preaching of the word, God reminded me of his faithfulness. God reminded me of the cross, the finished work on the cross. God has already prepared everything. EVERYTHING.

Perhaps, I would still be seeking glory for myself or even run after the things that I think can satisfy me. There will be a time when I would be so overwhelmed and forget what I'm called for. But I pray that when that time comes, God will send people to bring me back to Him or unfold circumstances that would bring me to my knees again that all I would need at that time is Jesus. 💕

And, here's a chapter in the Bible that assures us of God's promised provision.

Matthew 6:25-34 English Standard Version (ESV)

25Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?

27 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?[a] 28 And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, 29 yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?

31 Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. 34 “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.



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