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Another Year - Jesus

Gone are the celebrations. It's time to face the real deal. What are you gonna do next? What are you hoping for 2018?



Since last year, I've grown tired of writing down my faith goals. Probably because more than half of them didn't even come to life? Perhaps the one that I'm praying God for years didn't even show any progress? Should I be mad at God about it? No. 😑

There are more significant things to thank God for. Even the storm, the brokenness, the stagnation - all of them are God's dealing in my life. And instead of feeling anguish, the best I can do is to fall down on my knees and praise God.

However, like any other relationships, mine and Jesus' has been dead in the water. That's how I see it but not Jesus. He continued to plant and grow hope in me. 😢

Time and time again He showed me His Grace. He taught me to be more in love with Him every day. Yet I resisted. I was in the state of not listening to Him anymore. I can hear the voice. I can feel His hand pulling me back. But I walked away even farther.

I hate to admit it, I ended 2017 with heart issues that weren't laid down in the feet of Jesus. I kept them and tried to hide them from the Lord. Despite God's insistence of surrendering everything, EVERYTHING to Him, I refused.😭

Today, I'm looking ahead of 2018 wondering where else God would lead me? I'm lying. I'm just actually thinking, afraid on how God would expose my heart one by one, gradually, unexpectedly.

But also today, He again, once again, reminded me of who I am in Him.

Philippians 2:12-13
Therefore my beloved, as you have always obeyed, so now, not only as in my presence but much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you, both to will and to work for his good pleasure.

God is working in me. 😊
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