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To Peter


To Peter,

God has been faithful to me through all this year. I thank Him for all the wonderful things he has been showing me. I know you’re one of it. Honestly, I still love you. For me, you are special and will always be. If there’s a man I would allow to take my heart, it will be you. However, young as we are, there are uncertainties that have come along the way. I get so cynical and doubtful. The “what ifs” have been clouding my mind the past days. I have more important things to accomplish that God has entrusted me. Sadly, being committed to you is not part of it. I love you for who you are but we still have to grow more and more in faith.

I just want to thank you for letting me feel special. I may not be so assured of what you feel for me, still I’m grateful. You have been occupying a room in my heart. Right now, I just have to lock it and give the keys to God. In that way, in His most appropriate time, He will open it. It is painful for me to do this. Yet I know this is the best way.

I pray that you will grow in God’s love. I pray that you stand in what you believe in. I pray that you will devote yourself to the Lord. Serve Him and spend your time to Him. I pray that you will be more mature as Christ’s follower.

Whatever happens along the way, I will rejoice and praise God because that is what will please Him.


Yours,
Pamela

*photo not mine

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