Lord, life has been too tough for me. And i know it's not about the circumstances but rather me. Am I not making you proud? Am I going with the norm of this fallen world? I'm not having my devotions anymore. I'm too busy thinking of things which are temporary. Things which are worthless and useless. Father, I want to be with you in eternity but while I'm still here allow me to do things which will bring glory and honor to your kingdom. I have once once surpassed this laziness. With you giving me strength, I can do it again. I'm not taking the journey without you my Lord. Life is not about me it will always be about you. Take me to where you want me to be. May it all be done according to your will. I'm again entering the world o fascination. Dreaming of things which belongs to the world. It wasn't wrong to dream but to realize it, I must wake up and consider the reality. Yet I found dreaming as an escape of this cruel world. However, I wasn't d...